Ambien

Pete arrived home safe and sound-thankfully;)-but now he is battling a serious case of jet lag. The philippines is completely opposite with their nights and days compared to us and for some reason it is really easy to switch over to their time zone, but usually takes him about 2 weeks to adjust back to mountain standard time. Pete stayed up all night last night and informed me on our way to church that he was going to take an Ambien tonight to help him get some sleep. Now most people wouldn't start to have a panic attack when their husband mentioned to them that he was going to take an Ambien, but I did. Here's why...

Last summer, Pete was battling his jet lag after his trip to the Philippines and decided to take some Ambien to help him sleep. We went to bed and thankfully he fell asleep quickly. The next thing I know I am being woken up by a large crashing noise and I see Pete laying on the floor by our bed. I asked him what he was doing and he told me he was trying to get downstairs because they were coming to get him. I helped him back into bed and informed him that it was the middle of the night and that no one was coming for him. Then he asked me why I let them take him. I asked him who did I let take him and he then got very upset that I let strangers come and take him away. He seemed so betrayed that I would let him go without knowing who he was going with. He told me that he was very worried if they came back because this time they weren't going to let him come back home. I once again reassured him that no one was here and that he was dreaming.

We both fell back asleep and then I woke up to him once again trying to go downstairs and collapsing on the floor. Now Pete is on blood thinners and sleep walking+ hallucinations+stairs+ blood thinners=a serious hazard to his well being. I decided it was best to not fall back asleep and kept having to pin him down to get him to stay in bed and tell him that no one was coming. He kept telling me that if they came again he wouldn't come back. He even sent me a goodbye text message telling me he loved me and that he was sorry he would be gone (don't worry we were laying next to each other when he sent it to me). I intercepted the one he was trying to send to his mom:) Then he asked me if I could move things without touching them-which of course I said no to-and he told me that the people that took him could. They could move rocks without even touching them. Finally he fell back asleep and when he woke up the next morning had absolutely NO recollection of what had happened. He didn't believe me and still thinks I made it up-even after I showed him the crazy message he texted me. So now you can see why I panicked when he said he was taking Ambien. Here's to a night of hallucinations....

The longest day

Could today please be over? It feels like this day may drag on and on forever....

I am whining-I know, but Pete was supposed to be home today and then realized Sunday that he read his itinerary wrong and doesn't come home from the Philippines till Wednesday. I know-what is 1 more day after he has already being gone for 12, but I was only mentally prepared for him to be gone until today...

Luckily for me, I have this little man to keep me company and keep me laughing all day long:)




p.s. I really am super supportive of all his international endeavors and encourage him to take any opportunity he can, I am just complaining cause we really miss him.

Back to Reality

I always have a hard time coming down from the high of Christmas break and celebrating the holidays. Real life always seems harder after after living on a constant high. We had an awesome time going back and forth between staying up at Snowbird with Pete's family and coming down to hang out with my family in Provo. We had great snow, great company, a great Christmas-what more could we ask for.

Ry became quite the little skier while we were up there-it does run in the Reichman blood-too bad I am just a Reichman by marriage. I can only dream of skiing how they do...


Pete and I were lucky to squeeze in a lot of skiing just the two of us;)


Ry checking to see if Santa had come or not:)


Snuggling with Aunt Katie and Uncle Stain after all the hard work of opening presents


It took awhile to get down to my parents on Christmas day


Ry is special...


Pete took my snowshoeing as part of my Christmas present-I always want to go, but he thinks it is kind of lame. We went up Rock Canyon and it was Beautiful even if it was freezing! We made sure to go on a date last night since pete just found out he has to leave this week to go meet with a Governor in the Philippines


I hope everyone had a fabulous Christmas and a very Happy New Years!!!

Ryan Reichman a.k.a "the womanizer"

Ry came home from school the other day and said to me:

"I kissed Kate at school today, now she is my girlfriend and I just love her, we hugged and I really just love her."

Kate is a darling little girl and we know Kate's mom so it has made for some funny facebook messaging. The problem is that this isn't just an isolated incident. The night before this conversation we were at our neighbors and I heard Ry telling his friend Lilly that they needed to kiss-I intercepted this one and saved Lilly from having to kiss Ryan, but it didn't stop him from holding her hand:) He told Lilly's older sister that he is going to marry all 3 of the girls in their family (we need to explain polygamy isn't okay). And this past summer we found out that Ryan asked out 12-year-old neighbor out on a date to get coffee-where he got that we will never know. So needless to say we are going to have to keep our eyes on that kid....

Vulnerable

I feel so vulnerable writing this post, I have thought about it over and over and have been debating back and forth about whether or not to actually post it, but here it goes...

I want another baby-I have actually wanted one for years and haven't been able to.

I really, really don't want to seem like I am complaining-some days are just harder than others and lately things have gotten hard again.

I miscarried in February of 2009 and after that things were hard all the time. The desire for another child became all consuming-sometimes I felt like I was drowning in it. I put walls up around my heart to block out any emotion because I got SO tired of feeling the pain of it breaking each month. I welcomed the stress of applying to law school because it completely distracted me and helped my heart to heal a little bit. I have decided my coping mechanism of feeling numb all the time isn't very healthy so I am trying to let myself hope again. But learning how to hope again is so scary because it opens me back up to feeling things that make me raw inside...

Life is hard, definitely not perfect, not easy, but it can still be wonderful. I know there are things I am learning thru this experience and am so grateful for the gospel to know there is a plan that is so much greater than my understanding. Miracles do happen, I just have to be patient...And I realize the miracles may not be what I expect or want, but they have already happened and will continue to happen.

I am not writing this to get sympathy, or for you to feel bad for me, I want to write this in case there is someone who reads my blog that is going to thru the same thing. I think too often we only post the good things, but no life is perfect and I just want others to know they are not alone in difficult times.

I have fallen in love....

... with running in the freezing cold. I always looked at the people who ran when it was 20 degrees and thought they were crazy and now I have become one of those crazies:) Usually when the cold weather comes I just run on the treadmill-which I kind of hate-but this year I invested in some real running clothes and I can't believe how much I LOVE running outside in the cold. I am sure the people I pass probably wonder why I have the biggest cheesy grin on my face, but I don't care, I am enjoying looking psycho. I just wish I could warm up after I come inside....

the other half

When I asked pete if I could get a plane ticket for my birthday to go to San Francisco to see the other half of the art exhibit i saw in August, he was in shock (usually I just ask for clothes that I have usually already purchased:) ). My sister and 2 of her friends came along and we had SUCH a great time. We went on some really incredible runs-such a great way to see a city-biked over golden gate bridge and down to Fisherman's Wharf, went to the art exhibit and shopped. I loved spending time with my older sis and her friends, but was so sad it didn't work out for my friend Margaret to come at the last min. We had perfect weather-it was 75 and sunny in Nov, but I sure was happy to see my boys when I got home.

A little bit late...

I know halloween was 2 weeks ago, but things got a little crazy around here and so I am just getting around to posting these pictures. This was the first halloween that Ryan actually "got" the glory of trick-or-treating! It was so much fun to see him run from house to house with his friends, and this year he actually wanted to go to more that 2 houses without crying. Lucky for us, Ry forgot about most of his candy after the next day-which is probably best considering the whole teeth fiasco. Pete did tell me though that I was the evil halloween mom since I sent Ry to the house that gave out full candy bars twice:)













all pics from my iphone

genetics

When I was pregnant with Ryan I had to get some dental work done. While I was there the dentist said to me in a very loving tone, "I really hope that your baby doesn't get your genes when it come to teeth (I get cavities super easy), let's hope he gets your husband's genes (Pete has had 1 cavity his entire life)."

Well we found out today that the genetic lottery was not in Ryan's favor...
8 cavities-8!!!! I promise we brush his teeth :(
Possible crown (who knew they even did that on baby teeth)
An Anesthesiologist will have to brought in

So much worse than we ever imagined...